The only running I’ve done is in my dreams while sleeping pretty unsoundly.
This has been one hard week. All I’ve been thinking about is my knee, running and the race. Every person at work who asked me how I was I would launch into a long and intense rant about how I hurt my knee, the half marathon, my frustration etc. I think my coworkers were more sick of hearing about it than I was talking about it and dealing with it. But, it’s literally been the only think on my mind, I could barely do my work.
So, after tons of googling and reading Runnersworld.com, what I have is patellar tendinitis. It’s tendinitis of the tendon that connects quad and the kneecap at the tibia and causes pain in the front of the knee, below the kneecap. It’s caused by overusage and an increase in mileage. Yup and yup. Solution? Rest, ice, stretching. Time. That last one is something I don’t have. I have 6 days, not 60. And that super short length of time till the half is what’s really bringing me down. If I got this injury while I wasn’t training for something I probably wouldn’t be so depressed. But the fact that I got injured so close to something that I decided to do last September and I have been talking about and thinking about ever since is what kills me the most. That and running has turned into something that brings me so much joy, pleasure and a sense of accomplishment. Right now, I have lost that and unfortunately I don’t know when I am going to regain that.
However, I finally have some good news. After 6 days of feeling like I wasn’t feeling any improvement in my knee, yesterday there was improvement. I could walk around without it hurting and go up and down stairs almost normally. And I could work out (elliptical and biking)-something I haven’t been able to do without pain and therefore wasn’t doing it. And today, I actually forgot about my knee for about 4 hours! I have literally been thinking about it since the second it started hurting, so to forget about for a bit was a huge improvement and meant that it wasn’t hurting. It has actually barely hurt at all today. Horray!
And if you asked me this past Friday if I was going to run the race, I would have said with close to 100% certainty no. But today, I can say it’s looking much better. Much much much more likely. In fact, I would say that it is very probable that I am going to run. I am not making my decision until Friday night (race is Saturday), so stay tuned. But, to finally have some decent news is lifting my spirits up tons and is something I need sooo bad. I need a better week. I need something positive. And it’s looking like things are getting positive. Hopefully…
Oh, and this week will have many more posts than last week-pathetic I say!
Stay tuned to a post Friday night with my final decision.
By the way, thanks to everyone for your kind works, support and advice. It has helped a lot to hear everyone’s comments especially for something that is effecting me so intensely. Yay bloggers!